Lately, I have been blogging little because there wasnt anything interesting to say. There is lots of learning going on related to work and, more importantly, life.
Work is still frustrating because of my laziness and lack of motivation to dig in. Infact, things are fairly alarming. But I dont feel alarmed and there is a sense of deja-vu as I feel like I did while applying to grad school. I think I screwed up the application process and landed up in a 2-tier university because I was paralyzed with doubts and lack of confidence. My application was more like going through the motions which, inspite of my reasonably good credentials, landed me in a mediocre place.
Over here, I struggled with my immaturity and work. Relationships did not form or even if they did they were very superfluous. And work also went downhill. I resented the "successful" people because they got ahead with hard work and also good mentoring and connections. Grew frustrated but thought I will not do those dirty politicking stuff.
I hate my adviser because I expected the traditional Indian guru-shishya relationship. (Whatever that means, it is not as if I was witness to how it was during the vedic period!). He manipulates and am sure thinks of me as a well-meaning, bumbling, scientific kind of person who can be exploited to the hilt. I learnt that this is just another professional relationship where it is better to have low expectation but just do the job. If still the b***** keeps at it, bad luck.
In terms of relationships, I got into infatuations which I hardly act upon. I have a mindest which dosent want to take any step unless absolutely sure that this is the one for me. (I know this should provoke some laughter from a grown-up guy).
Now I am interested in a girl who has a boyfriend! Talk about trials...hehe..
I got provoked by this article from Chetan Bhagat (a speech given at some MBA institute).
Sparks
